I seriously wanna trust you when he keeps texting you and scolding you.
But I was convinced when I thought about it myself. He is 20 plus years already and I know he isn't a mad person. He won't text and scold for no reasons. I know. Everybody is like that. Its a common behavior.
I remembered asking, "You have something on with him eh?". You said no. Its not a past when you're close to me already. 1, thats your past. And all the ex, thats your past too. I'm not bothered by that. But he, I introduced him to you and you keep saying that hes disgusting. But you liked him.
You even had something behind with him behind my back. I thought theres only me. Thats why I continued to be close to you. I didn't know thats why. If I had known and if he or you had told me earlier, I swear I would have backed off.
You were so special to me. You understand me.
She, her, lied to me quite a few times. And guess what, I got hurt badly. You think I haven't learn my lessons? I did. I don't want anything, anything like that to happen to me.
Now that I know, I'm scared already. You might just be as the same.
I hope not.
Since its your past, whereas its only like 2 weeks ago & you didn't wanna tell me about it, I won't get sad or angry at it. I'm used to this.
Hahahahahahhh. When I am ever gonna change to the 13 years old Akhram. The 16-17 years old Akhram really sucks. I get hurt everytime feeling 16 -17 years old. 13 years old Akhram never gets hurt. He hurts people.
Hate me. Its okay. You aren't the only one.
Theres her, she hates me too.
So fuck myself, FML.
It's better right when you think you're a 13 year old boy. You won't get hurt vice versa. I don't need anybody's love or care. Not even my parents, grandparents or my relatives. I just need money from them. It is much better.
I just hope you won't be mad at me.
Because I can't go back through time and be my old self.
Love is not something I mess around with.
